How Do I Feel

 

What a beautiful night

And the wind.... fuuuu(sound of wind)

 

I open my eyes
Looking up and I puzzled
See the darkess sky
No moon, no stars, no clouds
Nothing...and

I can feel the loneliness

The emptiness in my heart

But then...

I hear a fine sound

so soft, so tiny and yet so many
And it feels peaceful to hear
I know what it is
Its the sound of crickets

Fuuu...(the sound of wind blow)

What a fresh air
Blowing slowly and gently touch my lips

Again, I looked up
I smile...
Coz I see a very fine star

Very small
Flashing and shining bright
Despite the darkness that meet all
I thought for a moment

Well...

Don't worry my sweet girl

Let it be

Coz emptiness can be fill by

Happiness.

 

 

 

Songs that match my day

Keith Urban

 

 

 Highway  Don't Care

 

 

I wanna love somebody like you

 

 

New Determinations for 2013

January 1, 2013 ~ Today is the first day of the new year. This year I want to make a difference to myself which I will set a new determination that I will be the first to achieve this year. My determination of 2012 has been achieved, that is, I already got into the university, achieve the best results for myself in STPM (1A 3B) and get at least band 3 in MUET examination. After struggling in STPM, now, I endured four years to hold a degree.

 In August 2012, I have received an offer to study at the University Utara Malaysia (UUM) in Kedah and offered degree programme in business administration with honors. On September 3, 2012, for the first time I set my foot into UUM and for the first time also I stepped my foot into the land of the peninsula. Despite the weather, culture and the environment were different from Sarawak, however, during the four months I was in UUM, I have managed to adapt to the weather, the culture and environment here. 

Indeed, a statement being away from families and are in a foreign place alone is the most difficult thing for a student. I myself was initially fearful and suspicious of the people in here because they are vastly different culture to the culture at my place. This is the first time I see food sellers using the microphone as a tool of communication with the customer. Honestly, I had a culture shock when I was in UUM.

When someone has got into the university, the first thing they want to accomplish is graduating with excellent results and holds a degree and thus gets the job appropriate to their educational level. However, for me, I put this determination in second place.

 My first determination for 2013 is that I want to change my old self to my new self. I want to change my personality to a person's self reliable, trusted to run the task, be sure to communicate with calm and able to think outside the box. Since 1999 until year 2012, I still cling to my old personality. Although I'm active in high school, but, since I step my foot in university, my fear still control myself. Therefore, in this new year I am determined to change myself.

Undo edits

My third determination is that I want to be single until I was 28 years old. I want to focus on the success I want to achieve for the next time I get promoted degree, became a career woman and then continue to pursue a doctorate degrees. Facts say we learn knowledge as lifelong learning. So, as long as I breathe, as long as I will learn knowledge. Being single have much benefit for myself because I can feel my freedom, not to be jealous to anyone and I can be friend with anyone without shackled. Instead of that, I can overcome my shyness in front of others. 

Final determination was that I want to build a good relationship with colleagues at the university during my 4 years at UUM. I want to increase my friends so that I can get a lot of benefits in terms of learning from lectures, to learn more about the culture and know more about interesting places to visit and create a strong bond of friendship. If I have a feeling for someone, I will try to control myself or if I do not want that feeling bother me, I will continue to express my feeling to that person and decide to remain as a friend at the university.

Therefore,  I will hold my four determinations that I have set and try to achieve it with all my heart.