Crying Heart

Have you ever thought to understand my pain?
Have you ever thought of putting yourself in my situation?
Have you ever thought to allow me to live in peace?
Have you ever thought to loves me like you love yourself?

I’m sick ...
But I was able to smile
A smile ... coz I know
Smile can change everything
Even if someone has no desire to return his or her smile

I'm sorry…

I’m sorry ... coz I can only love you until here
I had enough to withstand the pain and I know
I know you also felt the pain
As I experience now
But you do not understand my feelings
You do not understand what I'm feeling 

I’m crying but I can’t do so 

And all I can do 

Is crying from my heart…

I’m sick ...
I'm so in pain when I’m thinking of you
I'm so in pain when you reach me
I want freedom; please… I’m begging you

 Let me live in peace
Starting a new life
                              Collecting new memory

For me to be able to survive

But ...
You still get my best and
I'm sorry
I do not good enough for you 

Even I’m not good enough for you to stay with
And I cannot love you
I don’t mind what you want to say about me
I admit I’m not a good girl
I admit I’m not a woman who is able 

To assess the meaning of love

I realize

I can still able to hear a song

A song of sorrow

A song of pain

A song of  full of crying rain

Which is still singing in my empty land

However,
I know what does it means by pain and sacrifice
The pain that I did not dare to make love again ...


(No words can express:
Crying heart)